Death

I'm still coughing badly until now but that's not very disturbing at the moment though it's been more than a month now.What is disturbing my mind right now is about death!

Yesterday I picked out the local paper, browsing through and as usual I would read the obituaries . This started few months ago, don't ask me why? but I just do it everyday.I came across a very familiar name and taking closer look at the photo.....OMG! It's my school friend who everyone said she's my twin.We wore the same hair style,glasses and physique build.

This year itself,3 including her, the people that i knew very well passed away. The first was my classmate, was murdered and the body was found floating in the sea. The 2nd one was a lawyer friend who worked for US government taking care of US music and movie copyright.He was shot dead in Southern Thailand. All three news I learned from paper as we have not been in touch for long time.

What saddened me is their sudden demise and how they died.Whole night I had a very strange feeling and thought.Pondering through what happen after death, the funeral, how suffocating the corpse fitted into the coffin....... lots more weird thinking.

They said you're born to die.Something that everyone has to go through so live the life to your last breath. Make it as meaningful as possible!

Deadly Cough

Sicked for more than 2 weeks now.Feverish in the morning and cough through out the day.It gets worse at night with cough. All medication finished today and I'm just going to let my antibodies work on its own for now. Last 2 weeks,I've been swallowing too many pills to get cure.

I'm a "cough-phobic" as I have gone through many extremely bad experiences.One of the worse was many years ago, I spent my Christmas in Lugano, Switzerland.It snowed quite bit and I caught cold while taking few pictures outside the restaurant.I coughed continuously non-stop on 13hours flight back. And I believed the people in the same cabin did not get much sleep neither.My body arrived in jello and my cough continued another 1 month.Hhuuh ..., it was really torturing!

I am so careful now, I take Vitamin C everyday. Last few X'mas (always in Rome), I was all OK but this year I decided to celebrate it here in Kuala Lumpur.May be, in tropical country you don't worry much the Winter cold so i guessed i took it for granted.Well, in any condition, prevention is always better than cure!

This year, Winter in Italy is catastrophic.Snowing 60cm in Milan and Genova. Rome was flooded and hit by hails. Last week was 20cm of hails on the street.The weather is really havoc.I think my cough will be even worse if I were to be there now!

44

I'm not sure whether to write about this number. I am afraid it will bring jinx back to my life as I'm now recovering from many years of difficulties in business especially.

Back in 1998,after I just bought a new house, my partner got an email from Ghana.The sender claimed to be political asylum seeking the transfer of ill-gotten money out of Africa.From Asia, my 2 partners who are both Australian flew to Ghana, to Benin to Tongol and to Amsterdam. Chasing around the empty boxes are not cheap.From one continent to another.What more, along the way, they were instructed to pay for expensive gifts to custom officers, chemical solution (too hard and too long to explain here)and so many other silly things. After they have exhausted all the funds taken from business partners and family, I came in.

Thanks to Western Union, the transfer were made easy for every 3 days.I sent tons out to them to accomplish their mission.I was paying stacks of money for a beautiful story i get everyday.I was almost completely dry up when I smelled fish.Together with one of the partner who just returned a day earlier,we flew to Amsterdam.

Since I have taken out all my savings, few pounds become a lot for me. Stop-over in Heathrow Airport, a small bottle of water was expensive for me.Whatever is it, I lost everything. My cars (15 of them), my business, office, family's trust! The only thing left is my house, which I still owned it until now.

Ever since then I always see 44.Everyday, more than 3 times on the clock, the temple number to seek help, the sum of goods purchased, seat number, cinema ticket,queue
number. Just name it, I will always get 44.It was a black omen for years. Once i shared with someone in the family and my other business partners, they too will see 44 thereafter.

Lately the number appeared less but i was thinking about Obama.Who is going to the 44th President of United States Of America soon.Though I'm not American but I'm proud that he has been chosen.Will it be blessings or black omen? As the world is facing the financial meltdown and i think US is going through the toughest times now since the second world war.If you have a hole in the roof,you still can repair it. If you have 5 or 6 holes, you need more time to repair them but if you have the whole roof collapsing down, can the 44th president save it?

In Chinese, 44 means die die.Something that most Chinese would want to avoid it.Maybe Obama being African American can break this curse! Let us pray.

(to be continued...)

Today is January 9, 2009. Gaza had been attacked for weeks.Not only 2 wars during his campaign that he promised to wind up but now, another new pounding headache.

Obama is taking over a big horrible mess from his predecessor Bush.An era full of misfortune events, hugely condemned mistakes,and countless of tricky conflicts. He is walking into office against a backdrop of bitterness and anger everywhere. I feel very sorry for him and very sure he has no time to breath after his inauguration.

Has 44 got to do with this ? We shall see the man that supposed to change the atmosphere of political and economical battle field will end on which platform.

Let us pray for him while he is leading us through the long and winding journey.

P.s. Take a close look at the photo I took from the main entrance of the front gate of my house .Just recently i noticed but I do not know when or how the scratched mark of 44 is crafted.

Richard Branson

I'm now reading "Business Stripped Bare".Of course, is written by the eccentric Sir Richard Branson.Who else dare to strip bare in the business?

I'm half way to finish. Basically the book is about the " UHMMP" requirements and credentials needed to succeed in business. He shared his experiences in cutting deals and business management as examples as he guides us how to accomplish in the business.It's more like his autobiography but very interesting.

His strong belief is to pick the right people, entrust and empower them in running the shows and letting them to utilize their free hand and mind to the maximum as though the business belong to them. With this, his people are committed to the last drop of their blood to ensure the targeted goals are reached without feeling the pressure from him.The pressure actually exudes from them itself unconsciously! He shoots the goal without kicking the ball.

He is truly a great and adventurous Global Entrepreneur! Compliments!!

After so many years.....

Life hasn't changed much after years of trying to fix it or to straighten it. Back to square one but... a different square.Less stress at one side but more predicaments on the other.You can never circle the square to make it a complete circle of life and be happy with it. Somehow, someday it will hits the corner before it resumes to normal "straight-line" phase.So? Do you realized, after all, life is a square?

You need a square meal to start off your day.
You have to square up to face difficulties in everyday life.
To get a square deal,you have to go through hell and come back.
Sometimes you get square eyes from staring deeper into your future.
Even you are playing a sport,especially cricket, your life is not being spared! You have to short square leg to get into right position to win.
As tough as military,they get square-bashing during the drill.
Have you try square dance lately? I love the shouting part.

Whether you are enjoying sport,dancing,carrying up your patriotism,eat ,sleep, play,in mathematics,Chemistry or Physics,you can never get away with SQUARENESS.

I'm now living like a square peg in a round hole.Seriously, it does not needs Einstein to figure it out the kind of life I'm going through.It's a big messy square!

Obama Fever

Though days had passed since Obama’s victory on Nov 4, The Obama fever is still running high in me. I just can’t start off my day without reading about him. Whether it is his next political endeavor on US or the world or just something about his personality and even his life? It inspires me to live on my dreams (though I’ve shed tons of tears from his political campaign back in February).

It would be nice and peaceful if all the Presidents in the world had his mentality and courage to CHANGE for the betterment of his people.Reconcile and realign the ties with other nations to change the air we breathe.

The Obama effect and agenda are phenomenal,we should either clone him or let ourselves be attacked by Obama fever!

With Obama, the world will be ONE Hue! One vibrant People!

Long Live Democracy ! Long Live America !

Congratulations to all Americans! An unequivocal choice has been made after 21months of contemplating who will lead them out of the challenges faced by the country. Obama, the newly elected President is the right candidate at the right time and at the right place.

The 44th President-elect has inspired not only Americans but millions in the world. And I am one of the millions who had been touched by his eloquence and charisma. He has instilled so much hope in the young & old people from all walks of life, crafted an urge to change not only the individual life but the nation and ending the old conventional politics. The election process itself was a real transformative election, ever. I'm glad I lived to witness this emotional historic event.

To Obama, you have made history ! To Americans, you have re-write the history ! Salute!

Self-realization

Phewww.... at last for the first time, Shaun came forward to apologize after weeks of regular dispute on his mannerism and behavior. Though it comes a little bit too late but what is important from this point is that he has deeply thought through "self-realization". I was at the edge of giving up hope on him after many sleepless nights.

I never believed in apologies without self-realization beside sincerity.It is hard to progress further if a person does not realize the root of the problem.Yeah.... life still move on but... with dragging pain and the same problem will repeats itself more than History!

We hugged and cried after I accepted his apology. I'm not perfect too, yea. At the moment I'm happy and hope he will keep his words.

Sigh.....confused.

I have been sleeping around 4am the last few nights and getting up early. Body and mind are very tired and confused. Too many thoughts going thru' on my personal problems. At times, just feel like abandon my responsibilities and go on to live a carefree life. Not worrying anything about the future!

Too Free

Finally, I decided to blog. I guess after 5 months not doing much on work, ( mainly due to my health) I'm too free! I will probably blog about everything that come across my mind. That...will includes my past experience living in a glove.